christmas no negai
Saturday, December 30th, 2006it was christmas. ang daming batang pumunta. pati inaanak ng ate and sis ko, inampon ko na. it was a happy moment. mixed feeling. how i wish me anak na ko. i envy those mothers, i want to hug those kids as if they are my own. i thought christmas is just for kids when you reach this age. i thought sila na lang ang ang may right magwish. but since, christmas naman, nakisabay na ko. libre naman eh. i don’t expect it would be given soon, but i believe it would be granted someday.
i didn’t ask for money. there’s so many things money can’t buy. i have been praying this single heart’s desire- i want a happy family of my own, a loving husband and kids i will grow old with. somehow this sense of belonging comes naturally, when you’re alone, when your friends are out of reach, when you pretend to your family that you’re strong though inside you’re vulnerable and when you think that you have accomplished something and yet, something is missing…
